About my friendship

 Hey, this side talat....

I want to share something secret about me, I never ever publish or share my views thought to any one....

But, today I want to share, when I was in 7 years old.i started writing about myself in back side of school copy.. that time I made a friend. I never seen him.but I always talk to him.he was in my dream, everywhere I feel them but never seen them, I want to meet them😢

Do u understanding, who is that person ...actually my God 🤲 I love them, because he stand always in front of me... whenever I was in trouble, he always help me.when I became elder I started writing my thought in diary...one day  I meet a girl, when I was in 9th class.she wants to be mine friend.that time I am very happy 😊 when I arrive in 10 th class I got highest marks in geography.& That time teacher of geography is my friend's father, her father told them..ya you should make her friend. I always help her in. Study..she asked me questions...I feel 😁.now,  10th board is nearer, I asked them plz give ur assignment copy, because I didn't complete..and it's take a lot of time to make a assignment, and it's time to revision the topic..I didn't want to waste in time for making assignment..

But, .....😢she didn't give me..I feel very bad at time, I couldn't understand why she do that.i always help her, whenever she is in problem..she started not to talk to me, that time....I wept all the time, I feel very alone because she break my trust😭😭😭😭😭

After board..I started my journey from class 12 th I met a girl...she is very funny , I always study with her in my home..or her home too. Same tution I have choosen where she is reading.but one day my tution teacher tell my friends to give her these notes to talat..but she didn't do like that, that time I am suffer from jaundice...

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Last month ..a boy who is senior than me, he met me at B.ED college, he doesn't know how to write answers writing ...he ask me plz help me to do like that, I help him alot...he is asking me because I got highest marks all over the district.

One day I met a boy he is in B.ED college ..he is also senior than me.he is so funny makes a class enjoyable, I didn't understand how he came neare to me...& I love to make friends, Maine etne dhoke khaye...but iss dil ko kaise samjhao...he wants be a friend. College me kuch v hota means he has all information about college, because he has a lot of friends ..he asked them...and spread in all group,. This is very good way.i am also 😊....what is happening in class I  also asked them, aise krte krte 2 year beet gye...hmlogo ki kvi kvi baat v ho jati thi...

Jb v koi festival aaye, ya koi form aaye...usne mujhe ek bar ncert ki 📚 class 6 to 10 diya....Qki main uss time bpsc ko crack krna chahti thi..ye baat maine usse kaha tha..jb usne mere ghr aa kr diya. I feel very 😊.....ek bar uska accident ho gya tha..usne kaha aana hoga, nhi to ghr pe aana padega,tb main or meri ma or staff gye the milne, usne apni maa or father se milwaya.ghr aane ke baad usne phone kiya bola..mujhe bahut achha lga...aaplog aaye, Q nhi jatti Maine usse best friend maan rakha tha.main usse eid me v ghr bulaya tha..ek din ki baat h. Uska ameen me job ho gya.wo mujhe ab na call or na hi msg krta tha..main v yhi sochti thi, work hoga,time nhi milta hoga....kuch din baad ctet ka exam hone wala tha.dono ka same days hi pda..Maine usse sirf msg kiya kya aap jante ho ye place , wo bole are mere center ke pass hi h...main tmhe chor duga,. Tm ek kaam kro meri bhabhi ka v exam h same date,. Bhaiya gadi kiye h.hmlog jaa hi rhi h..aap v chliye..main boli train se chle jaugi, but he told me rhne dijye mera v koi thik nhi h..sayd main v nhi jau gadi se..main boli Q....uske basd unhone reply dena chor diya, tb main boli ok main aapke gaadi se hi chlugi..

Pr, unhone hmse jhut bola tha same jagh centerh..wo to phle utr gye, apne center pe phir unke bhai ne hmse kaha ..meri wife ka v exam h n..hmlog late ho jayege, tm ek kaam Kro yhi pe utr jao..yha se center pass h..phir main auto ka wait krne lgi, koi auto nhi mil rha..mujhe tb wo gaadi se utr kr aate h mere pass or khte h...hmlog late ho jayege..main boli it's ok..phir wo or unke driver kisi or place Jane wali auto pakra dete h mujhe..jb main auto me baithi, tb Maine auto wale se pucha..kya ye mere center ko ye rasta jayegi, unhono bola nhi..tb phir main utri...phir dusre auto ka wait ki..dar v lg rha tha..exam h late na ho jau, phir maine ek auto liya usme ek ladki baithi thi..wo v khi center pe jaa rhi thi.

Usne kha ye auto wahi jayegi, tb main auto pe baithi .phir map open ki...map ka direction opposite bta rha tha..phir main auto ko bola bhaiya yhi pe rok do.

Auto wale ne rok diya ..ab main road side ek stand lga tha.waha baithi map kholi search ki...kaise kaise jana h..tb mujhe pta chla .phir main ek auto li uss auto pe ek 40+ man baitha tha..Maine unse pucha ..uncle ye jagh aap jante ho..usne kaha jyada dur nhi h..pass me hi h..or unhone bola ghabra Q rhi hu...paseena pahle pocho.main boli uncle main late ho rhi hu, tb uss uncle ne kaha ...mere sath v ek bar same tmhare jaisa hua tha.main ntpc ka exam dene gya tha..phir hua kya.main Etna number laya..jitna koi v nhi..phir main select hua..meri job ho gyi...life me problem aate h..uska samna krna sikho.. phir auto start Hui, main center pe late pahuchi, copy unhone mujhe late se diya...Qki ye punishment tha...main sad 😭 thi...phir Questions paper mila mujhe, mujhe vomating v hone lga..friend ke gaadi se utrne ke baad hi mera sir me bahut jyada dard v ho rha tha...now, I feel relax. 1 hour aise hi par ho gye the, mere pass 1:30 mint tha ..then Maine socha ab yhi time me mujhe best krna h.tb Maine exam diya. I got 94 marks out of 150.but, mera friend usne to pucha hi nhi...kaise gyi thi, center pe pahuchi thi time pe ya nhi.naa kvi call na msg kiya.

Jb main unse friendship krne wali thi, uss time Maine unse bta diya tha ..main kind heart hu..mujhe dhoka kvi Mt dena.nhi to main tut jaugi..Qki mujhe bahut log dhoka diye h...jo v problem hoga hmse to hme kahiyega.main achha krugi...but he refuse to talk to me ..he never accept hi mistake...main continue 1 week khub royi...yhi lgta tha friend h.wo ek bar mujhe jarur puchege kaisa hua paper but nhi .jb main ek din call ki tb usne btaya mujhe pta tha..udhar se call aayega....😭😭😭😭

Really me wo mujhse friendship nhi kr rha tha...pr jhut Q bol rha tha...ye mujhe nhi pta kvi main zid v nhi ki ke aap mere friend bno.But I still miss them alot😭...ab mujge dosti pe vishwas hi khtm ho gyA h...last baat phone pe usne ye v kaha, dhoka hm agr diye h, tb pitwana chahti hu....😭I never think about them....God plz ab realised hota h... bachpan me maine aapse dosti ki thi...or avi v aap hi mere sath ho...tb mere real friends aap hi hue...plz God forgive me🙏🙏🙏 Maine aap se dosti kr kr phir v udhar udhar gyi...but share krne ke liye koi to hona chahiye na....main Galt nhi hu...I always wants to  find a true friend..but I lost.......😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭maine ab jana job mil jane se log badlte v h...koi nhi..now I am Qualified in stet as a high school teacher sirf joining aana baki h.......

I want to give message to everyone plz don't trust a person now a days, aapke parents se bda friend koi nhi ho skta...